What Porn Thought me

This is why porn sucks. After going threw all the pain and bull shit I went threw. Not one single Agency in South LA will work with me. Yes, I have quit B/G porn for personal reasons but a part of me still wants to do G/G. I love girls and to be honest, I swing more to women now then I do men. I use to be fully Bi, but all men have ever done to me is piss and shit in my face and women don't do that as much.

I have asked every agency, which there is about 12 and all 12 said " We know your old rep is not good so we refuse to work with you " 

I had fucking pussy problems because I lost my FUCKING VIRGINITY in the BUSINESS!  I am fine now and it works, but no one gives a FUCK. They all Judge my past and they don't care about future chances. No one even wants to give me a second chance. I guess I used all my chances :(

People wonder why I almost killed myself. This was my Dream when I got into porn. 

* I wanted to show the world what real love, passion and sex was. I just wanted to show the real world the real thing. I feel in my heart that love should not be limited. I feel by sexually expressing myself, this was the way to do it. At the end of the day all the energy made from sex goes back into the circle of life. If I can help start a new sex energy trend where people love more without limits then I will feel complete! *

Now I am a writer, which has always been my dream as well but I do miss the sex I got from porn.

I wanted to try to get back in, just doing G/G but no one will give me a chance, which I am use to that know. This world sucks the way it is now. 

That is why I wanted to die on 12/31/2012. I saw the world on how it really is and how no body really truly cares.

I do care, but that makes me a loser in the world, the way it is now. People who care, get shit on and the people who don't care, they live a free, fake, stress-less life. 

People ask me what porn has thought me and it has thought me that, If you want to find a place where no one cares if your DEAD or not. PORN is the place to go. I am sure there was many people hoping I died, but guess what BITCHES, I am still here! :)