Sex Vampire

As I sit at the table my heart is racing a mile a minute thinking about the sexy blue eyes on the man I have had a secret crush sense the day he took my anal virginity back in Dec of last year. He does not know this of course, because I was to embarrassed that I was not good enough to fuck him at the time. When I see him walking into the in and out burger I was enchanted by his presence but disappointed because he had shades on. I could not see the deep blue world in his eyes.  I did not say a thing at first hoping he would not recognize me as the girl who once had fuck issues. Luckily my new view on life was good enough to fool him. 

I would not say I was acting, or lying outright but I was doing what I thought I had to do. I knew he had the answer that I was looking for, but I just was not prepared for what is was going to be. As I sat there staring at his lips, face and hot body. I don't even want to say how sexy it is was, because I would sound like such a loser. I looked at him and asked him to remove his sunglasses. I could tell he was annoyed by the request and I felt bad about it, but he took them off.

I am starting into his eyes trying not to look overly stupid staring at him like that. I see the blue world I have dreamed about all my life. I knew in my mind he was my dream man. Every nite when I would daydream about the perfect guy, it was him. I let myself get lost into his blue eyes just long enough to feel the life force. I feel bad for robbing him of some of it but I could not control myself. I pull myself out of his blue eyes and I tell myself in my head, that I am this new girl Aaliyah.

The Burgers arrived and even though I knew I was hungry I could not get myself to eat because I was trying to tell the butterflies in my stomach to stop flying around. Sitting there I did not know what to say, so I didn't say a thing and I took a few bites of the burger. Yum..... not really.. I did not want to eat a lot because I wanted to try deep throating his cock latter. I kept telling myself ~everything is going to be ok.. its not like your known for being a killer.. a Heartbreaker ... maybe but not a killer. I took a few deep breaths and before I knew what I was thinking about we where done eating. 

We left together to go to the green place. LOL OMG I don't know what else to call it but Green place. I am sitting in his suv having a scooby doo moment in my mind. I was daydreaming about fucking him in the back of the suv.  He goes to go get the green stuff.  Time.. slowed down because I was thinking to myself at this point.

FUCK... I am a Nympo Now, WTF?  I knew I was perverted before, but now that sex feels so great, I can't  even get it off my mind. I sleep less hours now because I feel like I have wasted a lot of time NOT FUCKING. 

He finally returns with the green stuff. I look at him piercing threw his shades seeing his superman blue eyes. As we drove off, I didn't even care about the green stuff that he got. I was staring at him again like he was my first real crush. O GOD.. I think he is. Before I could say anything romantic he hands me a cigarette so I thought it was. "I don't smoke Cigarettes dude" I said like a hippie from FL (which I am.) I think he looked at me like the dumbest shit that ever landed in the valley. "Its not a Cigarette" he says. I look at it trying not laugh at my stupid self and I smoke a bit of it. 

As we are driving he asks me, where I would like to go. In my mind I thought.. did Jesus just posses the Eric Swiss? I then said what was on my mind, " Lets go to the Rocks and fuck " 

Like a dream we where heading to the Rocks and I just keep thinking this is a dream as it is happening. Fuck, maybe it was a dream because I am with someone, soooo out of my league. 

We get to the rocks the first time and we got out of his suv and I looked at him smiling. I love hiking, I can hike miles and miles and live off the land. The idea of including a fuck in the hike was something I was looking forward to. We started to hike and I try to fall on my ass because the green stuff in cali is crazy and I don't smoke often. We are ruining around the canon like two animals trying to find a good place to fuck. We run to the train tracks first. I see the tracks and I instantly envision myself tied to the tracks.  Screaming " Fuck me before the train comes!" I look at him smiling wondering if he is going to tie me to tracks and leave me there. If he did, I would not mind because at this point in my life all I wanted to do was please him. If pleasing him meant being tied to the train tracks for his pleasure, I would do it. I think when your flooded with sex hormone or whatever is happening to me right now, all logical thoughts go out the window. I have never been one to think normal either so my thoughts are extra crazy.

We reach the tunnel where the train goes threw and I remember this dream like I had it yesterday. I ran threw the tunnel envisioning the train coming. You may ask yourself why I have these mad thoughts. But if you could step into my world for one day you will understand. I feel my feet start to glide over the rocks and broken glass as I run threw the tunnel. I even closed my eyes as I ran for a few moments picturing him fucking me on the tracks. My body was far from being tired at this point and I was ready to fuck, even if it did hurt because I was sore from being such a slut the days before. 

I reached the end of the tunnel and I breathed and wait for him wondering what he is thinking. Part of me wanted to be aggressive to him, ripping his cloths off and fucking him but the submissive side of me said no. I thought about it long and hard as I waited for him to appear on the other side. He finally appeared and took control instantly. I let him have control. He pushes me against the sign and pulls my arms behind as if he where about to tie them to the post. " How would you like it if I tied you to the post? " he said. "I would love it" I answered. He hit my ass hard and the burning started the fire in my bush. I love that feeling of obedience. The burn that makes you know that at the end of the day your still a slut. 

His eyes scaning over my body I lower my eyes. At this point I don't feel dominate at all and I give him complete control. He grabs my breasts as they very sensitive from being bitten the day before. I moan a bit and feel my fire bush starting to get hot and wet inside. As if he sensed my pleasure or maybe he is a sex vampire like me, He stopped what he was doing. 

I look at him still lost in his blue eyes and he says " lets go get some water" I thought to myself. Yes! I don't have to drink is broccoli flavored pee again. Don't ask... its only something you do every now and then to test your limits. Well that is how it works for me. Kinda like Truth or Dare. ~smiles~ But do Truth or Dare with sex and it becomes a different game that I would love to play.

As we walked back to the suv I felt my pussy get wet in the tight overalls I was wearing. Yes I wear overalls like the git R dun world does. I was still in a breathless state because this was really happening and I felt so lucky but in shock at the same time. Because, if he knew I was Nicki Blue, he would not have gone on this fuck date. He thought I was a New girl named Aaliyah! I should be a new girl again, because Aaliyah knows how to fuck!

We went to the seven eleven to get some water. As we walked in, I was scouting for the store clerk I use to flirt with all the time. I found out he was no longer there. Times fly when you leave the valley it seems. Everything has changed sense the last time I was here. Only two people have recognized me so far and they had a good reason to. We walked out and drove back to the Rocks for the 2nd time!

As we drove back to the rocks he talked how pretty the world was. I was in dis beilf and thought for a moment. Life.. is this a joke? You land this beautiful perfect human before me and he sees the beauty in the world? I have never fallen in love before because I wanted to fall in love with someone who was beautiful, smart, and sees the beauty in god. Here he is sitting next to me. I was still speechless trying not to cry which is not that hard to do anymore.

Once life throws you so many hard balls the pain starts to no longer register which is where I am at today. Now I can control my tears and cry on command HAHA!  

I felt like it was way .. way WAY to good to be true that he is treating me this nice so I start to doubt it. Like the devil did to the people so long ago. We took a different path into the rocks this time and we where going to go to the top of the rocks. I follow the best I can, but he is so tall.. so perfect that I am like a stumbling like a fool behind him. That was because I decided to hike with the water because I forgot to leave it in the suv.

I placed it in my mouth like a water gag and I smiled. He noticed my struggle and he took the bottle out of my mouth. I smile seeing his kindness. I was then able to follow better and I did. We reached this field first and there was a horse ranch. I was looking at the beautiful creators and I splat out like a girl with tourettes " You don't expect me to fuck these horses do you?" I was not able to read his face to tell if he was smiling or not. 

He says " would you?" I thought HELL NO and said " No .. no". He then said " what if you just jerked it off?" I said " I am not sure if this is a joke or not but I can't do that, even if it paid 1,000,000 dollars!"

We kinda stood there a long time and I started to look at the horses in a different light for the first time. I envisioned doing such a crazy thing and then I thought about the flees. " I can't" I said again reassuring myself. 

I took a few breaths in and thought.. God dammit I am a pervert!

I said to clearfiy my limits " my limits are no scat .or. animals..! " He understood.. Thank god, I said to myself. I thought this but did not tell him "If jerking that horse, as gross as I think it is.. if that meant I could meet Jesus, I will do it. I have a lot of a questions to ask him. 

Like.. 

This curse has affected my hole life, Why did this world curse me with Vaginisimus?

Vaginismus, sometimes anglicized vaginism, is the German name for a condition that affects a woman's ability to engage in any form of vaginal penetration, including sexual intercourse, insertion of tampons and/or menstrual cups, and the penetration involved in gynecological examinations. This is the result of a reflex of the pubococcygeus muscle, which is sometimes referred to as the "PC muscle". The reflex causes the muscles in the vagina to tense suddenly, which makes any kind of vaginal penetration—including sexual intercourse—painful or impossible.

I would also ask Jesus, Why when I speak the truth no good has happened from it?

I feel like lies get you further then being honest. I use to be a super honest person before all the pain I had to endure. I was not aware I was different, I thought sex was meant to be painful. Now I am healed from this but I still didn't know it yet.

Back to reality and I am not talking to Jesus. 

We walk pass the horses not talking about them anymore and I think I changed the topic anyways because I felt like such a freck. Is this what a Nympo is?   

A Sexual Freck... Who can't stop thinking about Sex.. I wake up thinking about Sex... what do nympos do with their life?.. o God.. I am a sex vampire because I can't find Love in this world!

We walk up to a bunch of rock climbers. At first I thought we where walking threw Wonderland and I saw a Dog in the tree. NO REALLY I saw a dog head floating in the tree. I was in shock again.. I was like. " Swiss balls just took me to wonderland. I stared at that dog and I thought it was going to say something. I waited... and waited. I was really hoping the dog was going to talk to me because then I knew I was in a dream and I could fuck mr swiss without really worrying about getting in trouble! 

Soon I snapped back into .. a less.. stoned state of mind and they where like.. " You like our dog?" The words are still knocking at the door in my mind to register what they just said. "Yes! yes" I said and I looked over at the mountain climbers and my eyes locked on their muscles flexing in heat. Sweet dripping onto the ground like a river pool of sweet. I love sweet in sex, I thought. When I fuck, its like slip... nn SLIDE. Really.. I sweet more then any other female on the planet! Hopefully I can prove that statement one day. When I fuck, it gets any bed wet and when I fuck on leather it turns it into a slip n slide. 

I fucked a sexy man named Anothy Rossano the day before and we where so wet I felt like we where having sex under sweet water. I did not care how I looked on camera, because I forgot it was there and focused on fucking the beautiful steed that life put before me. Our sex was like how the animal planet animals do that but with humans.. no animals but you know what I mean.

Back to wonderland. I was still in shock realizing these people tied their dog into a bag... and hung it on a tree. The bag was green as well as the tree so they blended in together for a brief moment when I saw it. It really looked like a dog head floating there. I realized the Swiss moved on and I followed. So many hot people in CA I thought to myself remembering how strong you have to be, to be a rock climber. 

We reached this.. I think it was some kind of thing you tie your horses to. Of course I took my place by the post and the bent my arms back. I closed my eyes for a moment smiling hoping he ties me to it. He holds me there and grabs my tits and I know he likes them because he squeezed them.  I could feel my nipples get rock hard from his touch but he still denies me sex because I can feel I must be fumigating it. 

We moved on up the trail. We walked up a lot of rocks and I slide down them like Tarzan. Wait.. that was when we where going down, not up. It was more like trying to avoid breaking my nails because they are real because I am to broke to get them done. haha

So we are going up the rocks now and I am trying as hard as I can to keep up with him. He is so tall and perfect, I am short and wild... not perfect like he needs. We walk up the rocks and we get to the top. At this point I thought it was a dream and I took off my top and bra. My breasts where exposed to all of Chatsworth! The sun set was so beautiful, I was convinced this was a dream.   

All the people around starting at my topless chest I didn't see at first. I was so far gone in my own sexual fantasy that I did not care anymore. I jumped across a rock where if I failed I would of fallen to my death but I didn't. All of a sudden I am standing by this Sexy God and I am topless for his pleasure. He looks for a moment and I smile hoping he likes what he sees. I stay in this moment for as long as I can, because this moment was amazing. 

I was standing on top of the world with this beautiful man and behind the hand painted sky. I looked at him wanting to jump in his arms and pretend for one minute that we loved each other. I then knew that could never happen because I am not the girl of his dreams. That moment, like I was pushed back into the real world, I noticed people staring at me. 

I even saw one person cover her child's eyes because my boobs are huge ... and was probably scaring them.  

I looked around and saw many people and many eyes and he asked me " What are you crazy? Why did you do that?" I stumbled to get my cloths back on because I could hear the people now. I answered " I did not think anyone would be up here," I really did think that and for a few moments, there really was no people around and it was GREAT!

I love being naked in the public light. Nudity should not be feared like it is. Nudity is Art, it is Organic as Organic can get. Nudity is what life gave us and we hide it everyday. If you asked me what I thought was wrong with the world. This would be my answer. 

We spend so much time focusing on hiding things instead of fixing the problems in blind sight. I can't cry for this world anymore because I am done caring because the world stopped caring for me. 

These are my true feelings coming to you, and I can say that the world has cursed me into being a Vampire. When I was young people helped each other in need, now the need is ignored. People need to learn how to love again. Care about people, stop trying so hard to be something your not. I am doing that now and I don't care if it kills me because I would rather die then lie now. 

Back to the moment that I hate most. When I am putting my overalls back on I notice he is looking down at this girl. She is his soul mate and I knew that the moment I saw her. Her hair was long and went all the way down to her butt. She had exotic skin and a beautiful soul and I was attracted to her as well but I would always let her be his. I felt so mixed at that moment but it was good because I knew that he was a 10 to me, where to him, I may be considered a 6. 

I accepted that, when I put my overalls back on. He paused and asked me if I saw where she went. I knew he wanted to follow her so I told him. I pointed to the bushes and he went to go after her. I looked across the sunset sky and wished I could be that girl he is chasing. I hate feeling self pitty... I do , so I moved my thoughts onto something else. I wondered what I am going to do with my life now. I wanted to be able to return to LA and shoot porn like a new girl I wish I could be. I realized though, that it may not happen. No one wants to work with me, when they realize I am Nicki Blue.

I took a deep breath in and decided to not think about it now because its ruining this heaven I was in. He returns almost out of breath and I ask, " did you find her?" He shook his head and I felt bad. I was hoping he would of found her. I could tell how her beauty ignited his soul. They would be perfect for each other I thought to myself as I listened to him say how strange that was. I did not comment because I felt bad that he lost her and I could of cased her for him.. half naked, and I didn't.

We then decided to head back because it was getting dark. I was not expecting to get fucked now. All of a sudden we pass this cave and he grabs me and rips my overalls off. I felt the clip break off and hit the rocks below. I did not care that my overalls where broken now, all that was on my mind was pleasing him. He finished taking off my cloths and I am naked wearing nothing by my puss boots. Yes I wear the same boots Puss does. 

He pushed me into the rocks and I arched my back the best I could. I felt my leg jab into the rocks keeping my back up and butt out. He started to fuck me with his fingers and I thought it was his dick! YES! I thought his fingers was a Dick. I look back to see him pounding my holes and I see a arm. I turn my head back into the rock trying not to laugh because I thought his finger was a cock! This is like the second time I thought a finger was a cock.. last time, it was a finger in my ass and I thought it was a cock!!!

My body starts to tremble from getting fucked by his strong hand. My eyes look into the nite watching all the lights on the street start to turn on. Nothing is better then getting finger fucked on top of a bunch of a rocks, by a cave, watching all of the valley turn  into nite.  I knew people could hear us or walk into us, but I also knew we both where fast and I was not going to get caught. He finger fucks me for a few moments pushing my back into a super arch. 

We then moved onto a different area in the rocks. This area overlooked the horses. I kept telling myself not to think about the horses. He pulled out his cock and I started to suck it. I started slow wrapping my mouth around the head. I sucked the tip and then slowly sucked my mouth over his head. I kept sucking his cock until I could feel it growing in the throat. I kept it there feeling it throb and I took my throat muscles and massaged his cock. I then sucked it deeper to the point I could no longer breath and I imagined swallowing his cock. First few times went well and then the fourth time I went in for it I gagged and tomatoes came up. 

I wiped them off on the rock and sucked his cock more. All going threw my mind was giving him the best sex I knew how to give. I have only been doing it the right way for a few months so I knew I lacked a bit. I do try to make up for what I lack. I keep thinking about his cum resting between his balls and before I could suck them we moved on again. 

We started hiking down the mountain and all I could think about, was hoping my sex was pleasing to him. When we got to the car I said " If stroking off a horse involves me meeting Jesus, I might do it"

We drove off them words still in the air. I then said " so was my sex good?" He looked at me and said it was about a 6. Hatred pulsed threw my veins and he said. " You see, when girls think they can fuck good, they end up not fucking so good" I nodded. Wanting to say " It looks like I need a lot of practice because I suck!" We get to his house and we get out.

We hung out underneath the star filled sky for a bit. I sucked his cock again trying to get it down deeper and deeper. I even deep throat ed the smoke on his cock. 

We then moved to the bedroom. Yes .. the bedroom. At this point I was fucked dry from all the fucking I have done the days before. I did not want to tell him I was sore and ruin the moment.

We started fucking on the bed and it felt great but I could tell he was looking into my face with deep thought. I looked at his iris and he said " You have Vaginismus" . We were fucking yes and I wanted to keep fucking but he just said.. I have... Vag. what.. HUH? 

The sex stopped and I felt bad about stopping it but .. WTF did you just say? He looked at me and then grabbed his computer and pulled up the condition Vaginismus. We started to fuck again and I kept trying to get what he just told me out of my head and focus on the fucking. He can't be telling the truth because if he is, then satin cursed me bad. 

As he is still fucking me, I am laying on my back looking into his Blue eyes and he said " You have never cam before have you?" I looked at him and avoided that question - unsure really.

He had a scene to do soon, so we had to stop and I was in shock at this point. When we where walking back to the SUV I said " What you said, can't be true because if it is" He finished the sentence, "then you can't do porn".  Horror filled my mind....  

I came back to the valley to do porn and show to the world I can fuck now. I am cured of Vaginismus and I can prove it. It is a great contrition to have if you learn how to control it because I can make any dick feel big now. I have the tightest pussy on the planet when I want it to be! My willingness to please goes far above what it use to, I love to fuck now. 

He dropped me off and I said to him, "I hope I can fuck you again one day and show you that your wrong."

He drove off and I said to myself  "I had Vagisismus"