I Fuck like a Wild Flower!

Nothing is worse then waking up realizing that you can fuck now but no one wants to fuck you if they know who you really are.

This is the worst feeling anyone could feel, and I feel this everyday of my life because I was cursed with Vaginismus http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002457/

I did not know I had this condition when I was preforming under the name Nicki Blue. Sex was very painful and hard for me. Every scene I did, I was getting ripped inside but I did not care because I loved to fuck so much. I did not know sex was not meant to be without pain. 

I lost my virginity and from that point on, it hurt to fuck but I thought it was normal. Now, I know it isn't and I have trained my self and I have fully recovered from it.

When I did had it, It ruined a lot of dreams and opportunities I had because I could never hold a relationship. I have lost everything I have owned from this illness. I have lost dreams of doing mainstream before porn, but its Ok. Shit happens in life and we move on. I am going to try and hope my new fucking skills rocks someones world and gives me another chance at life. 

Instead of giving up with life, I am going to keep going now that I can fuck like the rest of the world. It just sucks that I have to do twice the work to get back to where I was when I started. No one wants to work with you, when your not New. On top of that I am known as a sucky person to fuck, because in my past it did hurt me to fuck. 

I am not a sucky person to fuck now! I can swallow your cock until I'm at the verge of not breathing. I can fuck you until you can't fuck anymore. I love your lust for me and all I want to do is please you. 

So, I am not sure if the industry will give me a second chance. All girls get once chance and I fucked up mine. I swear, I was not aware I had this stupid condition and it is gone now.

I am a new person now, I have no anger or hatred towards anyone. I'm more relaxed now, but I still have my odd moments because I am a odd person. How many people in the world fuck for over a year in so much pain thinking it is normal but loving the idea of pleasing so much, that you do it! I learned to take pain as my pleasure and now for the first time I feel pleasure for pleasure.

I know I will still have haters but let them hate. I am happy now and I can't wait to find out what I can do now. Before sex was a limitation to me because it hurt me. I lost many beautiful faces I wanted to be with. I missed out on open doors.

I sit here at 23 and I'm not going to let my past stop me but I want people to know the truth.

I can fuck like a Wild FLOWER!