Lessons today

Today was a great day I learned about the 13 YES 13 Apostles who are follwers to God and one they left out was Mary Magdalene who is a wicked great women and I am pissed they chipped her image away. I am also learning Gnostic Theology which is way cool. Nothing is cooler then uncovering all the secerts males decided to hide from me.

FUCK OFF .. is how I feel towards males sometimes, But I will not think that way that long because I want to be nice and love and not hate.

The real reason there is 12 Apostles is because they represent the Zodaic ;) Gotta love the Zodaics, I do.

BAM that is what I learned today!

Back in LA

I am back in LA and not to do porn. Porn was fun when I did it but it is time for the next chapter in my life to begin. I will be GODS secetary and I have never been one before but I know I can do it well. I am also going to be writting a book and YES, PORNSTARS can become writters. I have always wanted to be a writter sense I was in the 4th grade and wrote my first book called DRAGONS. I never had it published because I wanted to rewrite it one day after GOD said I was grown up. I am finally grown up now at 24. I feel like He is ok with me being a writter now which is why I retired from modeling. That and after LADirect let me go there was no other agency left for me to go to. Yes I could be my own agent but then the risk of getting cheated on money gets increased by alot and I got sick of being cheated on. So this is where I am at know and  I am so Happy GOD has lead me back here.

Life is great now and I would not change anything :)

Valentines Day

I am going back to LA on Friday to begin a New Life. YES a new Life one that GOD will show me when I get there. Counting the minutes now until I get back to the Valley. Not sure where I am going but it will make itself known when I get there. I am happy to be back even though I did just get to FL, but it was nice being here. I also understand GOD pulls me in so many directions it is hard to keep track. I am his new warrior chick so whatever he wants I will do. I love him because he is the greatest thing sense Chocolate and he is better then Chocolate. I do feel less like the Freak Show today. I have a tendency of feeling like a Freak sometimes because I am so alert to the world and everything in it. Most people could care less and I see it all. Every smile, frown, tear and shine. I love observing everything. I can find your lost keys if you need me to because I am good at finding things as well. Anyway this is all I have to say for know. I love you all! Love, Light and Peace!

Auras

ok so this is life to me ... BORING ... sorry I love GOD and everything he shows me but my life went from OMG to.. OMFG. I love God but now life has turned life into a TV station with one channel really the real life channel. All people do is solve their puzzles which are simple for me to read. I don't like reading people because it is rude but now I feel like I should again. Butt into peoples business because I am bored but I really don't want to be the FREAK again, but I am the FREAK. I am the girl who knows your business even though you think no one knows I do. I really do know and it annoys me really. I could care less about YOUR ISSUES but I know them. I can also tell you what color your AURA is. YES I am a  Aura reader too. YIPPEEE another thing I get to do for the world. I guess this is who I am and it is. I am the freak show. 

Freedom

Freedom from Drugs is the best freedom there is. The only drug I have ever used a ton of is weed and I am a month sober and I love it. Yes, I miss getting High but not getting high is better for me. I love the Drug of god and looking into his face every day. He looks at me and I stare back in tears of his beauty and grace. The last time I got high was Jan 17th and we are almost one month in of not getting High and I love it. I am so high of life and that is the way life should be. 

I am Back!

hey guys so I am back and back in FL and in my home state. Yes I was born and kinda raised here. I love it here vs. LA. I like the people and the pit bulls. I just wanted to give you all a fyi that I am back. Much to talk about but I am sitting in my hot car typing this out but I LOVE the HEAT more then I do the Cold of TN. I love my family there but the COLD, I never could stand. I am ok and I plan on driving across the country many more times before I die and shed more tires on the pavement though mustang vs explorer the explorer wins. More room and I can SLEEP in it, in the correct weather.

Gods Lessons

Lesson one:
http://witcombe.sbc.edu/eve-women/7evelilith.html
The normal awake state of mind "the first attention" 
The dream world is known as " the second attention". 
Third attention is a very special state of conciousness. Someday you will experience it fully, but that is in the future :)

Lesson Two: What is your conception of God and what do you see when you picture God, Does God have a personality?

I see god in everything, in every Robbin  in the sun and the moon. God has the best personality in the world. He loves with all his heart but does not love everyone the same. Some people who do not love God, he will curse with cancer. Not saying that everyone with cancer is cursed by God, because cancer can be prevented but he does not Love everyone the same. God does love the children because they need his love and are born with it until they learn good from evil. His personality to me is like mine. Good and bad, evil and nice. Funny because life should be Fun!

I hope this makes sense. 

Describe and define your conception of Love;
True Love is about appreciation. When one thanks God that a certain person exisits. It's not about the person and what they can do for you. It's about what a person truly is.