Love

My next lesson is to love myself. I have never loved myself before. This is going to suck. I love GOD and the Sun and now it is telling me to love myself. GURRR

This is going to suck. Finding out, that I am the HACKER sucks too. I make computers go  stupid when I am upset and boy was I upset when I found out Taylor Swift is with my baby Ed. I am happy they are togeather now but at first I was upset.

Every guy I have ever liked is always taken by someone else and she is like my sister to me and I can't be upset. I hope they last forever and ever.

Now I had another big blow to my soul and I see shadows.

Protectors

Now I feel like the Hermine Granger of Shaman Modern times. The world is so magical to me. I am being trained by a REAL Nagual and the teachings are a Dream. I feel like my mind is on the 5th level and everyone else is still suck on the 3rd.

I feel my dreams becoming reality around me and the spirit talks to me, more and more each day. The best part now is I have protectors! I have people and I feel them that are watching over me. I feel safe again in Gods light. No longer afraid of ANYTHING or anyone.

I feel the Inorganic beings around me just waiting to pop out if danger appears. Kinda like the TAKEN series that use to be on the Sci Fi channel. Guess what  .... ITS REALLY REAL AND HAPPENING. I am that freaky girl, which is fine because most people see me as Nuts and I laugh at them.

I thought I was nuts at first and then I realized I was just really super psychic and awake when everyone else is ...*snoring and asleep* hehe. People honk at me on the streets because I can wear mask and they believe I am whatever I project to them.

I love the world now and it is so much fun messing with the minds and the masses. God gave me the OK to do so! Inorganic beings rock btw. If you have ever seen a UFO then you know what I am talking about.

Its so hard to sleep at this time of the Day because I feel the Dreams becoming into this world and other people are so unaware but I am. I feel so much smarter now, that and I got supporters. Thank you

No sleep for me

Its so hard for me to sleep right now because being awake is more of a Dream then being alseep. When I am awake everything is talking to me, even the Ravens! God is so alive in me and the world is so magical. Today I slowed down the flow of water which was wild. Yesterday I kept the sun out all day long. I want to keep the SUN out for as long as I can. I love GOD and the sun and he keeps calling my name.

Every time I turn on the radio he speaks to me threw every fucking song! I love the ways of the Shaman and I am listening to so many Bright minds though many are dead but I feel their spirits inside me. I love life now and I can't wait to go travel the world know in many Masks. Today I am going to travel and keep the Sun out. :) *rawr

I am going to go on another sleeping BINGE because sleeping is so BORING! I use to live in the Dream world but know my Dreams are COMING TRUE! Every person I think about contacts me out of the BLUE! I listened to Coast to Coast to hear ESP RESEARCH .com... um try ESP SCIENCE :)  Going to make this the new best science in the world.

I can already stare into the Sun and not go blind and I can heal and slow down water. So please come at me to try to dis prove GOD. I FUCKING DARE YOU SCIENTISTS. I am here and I ready to prove to you all that I am not full of shit. JAMES RANDI.. HI I know the shit you pulled but you can't dis prove me hehe! I will make you eat your own shit if you try to tell the world I am full of shit!

I am off to go talk to GOD some more because as cool as the internet is even though the Inorganic beings made it for me, the sun is funnier! XOXO
Love * Light * & Peace *

The TRUTH

I go to my yahoo mail to find a email from MR.Acworth and I am so happy.

I love him and the fact Kink.com helped me break the tightest hymen in the world.

Yes, I was not that honest, but there was many angles and demons there that night. If I spoke the truth it would not have happened.

The world was not ready for the Truth and now I want the truth out. I was a Virgin to GOD.

God was my boyfriend and I was sick of never having real human sex. The path of the Universe lead me to kink.com and that is why I went there.

I wanted to be tied up in ropes because I knew my body would fight it. I knew there was something wrong with my pussy, I just did not know what. I never went to the doctors because they wanted to cut my hymen out which would then no longer make me a virgin in his eyes.

I took the pain and then after that shoot every shoot I did under the name NICKI BLUE was so painful I would fight tears. I would go to the bathroom to CRY and not USE DRUGS. I understand a bunch of people thought I did drugs but I was not doing Drugs. I was running to the bathroom to cry. I was in so much pain.

I had a pussy surgery after DR. RIGGS found out my pussy was fucked up from my virginity shoot. It cost me all my money I made in porn to get it fixed and when I returned I used the name Aaliyah Avatari.

No one wanted to work with me know because they remembered me for my bad shoots.

This is why I retired from being a pornstar is because people stopped caring about me and saw my past problems only.

My Story Shortened

The Universe is flowing threw me right now and lets just say I spent my birthday nov, 9th 1988 with God and Xmas. On the 27th of Dec. he came back inside my body. From that point I drove from CA to the Blue lake which was the great lakes.

God came to me as a Lotus when I was 19 and I set him free into the woods. For four years he left my body so I could grow up. I gave the world my virginity, to Kink.com on Jan 15th 2011. I have done the worse of the worse but I did it to learn the lessons God wanted me to learn and I got stuck in the deepest darkest evil of LA.

When I lost my virginity all the sex I have ever had with humans have been painful up until now. God has given me a normal human body now, but its to late because everyone hates me because before it hurt me to have sex. 

My psychic abilities returned 7 days after 12/21/2012. The day the triangle appeared in the SUN. When I look into the sun I can stare into it for hours and my eyes are healed by GOD. I will never go blind as it is one of my powers.

I am a Sun Child and connected to the Sun. The sun was Bipolar so was I.

When I went to Roswell and Area 51 I was told I was a recantation of Lilith. I know you don't want to accept it but I have memories similar to hers. I had nitemares growing up of men getting ontop of me and trying to fuck me, when I was still a Virgin. I was a Virgin until I was 22.

I do have a lot of her memories and I have had many people even a Jewish Rabbi conferm that I have parts of her soul. Now listen, she is not a demon like history says, they have changed the truth to make her into a rotten soul which she is not. You can read me and tell I am not a evil demon even though I have fucked angels and demons at this point in my life.

The pain you felt was the pain of me losing everything in my life which I have 3 times. I have lost the one I love , my alien lover Milo. I have had UFOs inorganic beings around me, my hole life. It is hard to prove because my proof has been burned.

I'm only 24 and I have spent the last 4 years in porn and doing drugs and I'm just now starting to get back to the spiritual world. From 1- 15 I was with GOD. Milo my first lover who was a alien and left the planet when I was 16 and then my skin turned BLUE which is why I used the name Nicki Blue. I use the name Aaliyah Avatari, now for my blogs  because  I wear many masks of protection to confuse people.

I don't know the history but I want to learn but I want you to understand parts of my soul is alien because alien sex / energy sex / inorganic sex is the only way I have ever enjoy it and Milo is my soul bound lover. We bonded and we are still married even though he lives in space and in the sun.

Chacmools

Learning about Inorganic Beings has been fun sense I already know about Aliens and UFOS. The reason why I used the name Nicki Blue was Nicki is close to my real name which is Nicole and I used the Name Blue is because when I was 16 my skin turned Blue after my inorganic boy friend left the planet.

It was such a sad day and I did what I just did recently and I starved myself for a few months from depression. Ontop of all that my skin then turned Blue. Nothing is stranger then having Blue skin and all I did was try to wash the Blueness off my skin. So yes, I was a Blue girl for a bit of time.

I am also learning about the Four Chacmools which is the Sun, Moon, Earth and Air. Of course I am the Sun Chacmool, which is fun but I always knew I was the sun Child. Now I am learning about real Shamen magic and it is fun. I love learning all the truth that has been waiting for this time in my life.

I have always been psychic and something told me that 24 was going to be a big year I just did not know I was going to be super psychic again. Please dont ask for a reading right now. I am still healing from all the shit that happened sense the 27th of Dec.

For some reason 6 days after the world meditation I returned. It caused the connection to the Sun to be reunited to the earth. The sun is also no longer Bipolar. I was Bipolar for a few weeks but now I am no longer Bipolar I promise :)

I am now becoming a writter which is fun and I am writting about all this CRAZY shit that is real. I know most the world is like.. Aaliyah Avatari aka Nicki Blue is the craziest person on the planet and maybe I am but I know I speak the truth.

Small Bump

Here is lyrics to a song I decoded and this is what I saw;

You're just a Small Bump unborn, Four months you're brought to life,

( four sides )

You might be left with my hair, but you'll have your Mother's eyes,

(He has red hair and I have red hair and I have my Mothers Eyes)

I'll hold your body in my hands be as gentle as I can, and now your scan on

My unmade plans,

(Gods  plans I must scan and look into too)

Small bump four months then brought to life

( I was brought back into life Sep. 10^th 2012)

I'll whisper quietly, I'll give you nothing but truth,

(God is giving me nothing but truth now)

If your not inside me, I'll put my future in you

(I am not inside him but he gave me my future)

Cause you are my one, and only.

( ;) I love you too God)

And You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

Oh you are my one, and only.

 You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

 And you'll be alright.

 

Your just a small bump unknown and you'll grow into your skin.

(I am learning my new Normal skin and it is no longer BLUE)

 With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin.

(I got a dimple)

 Finger nails the size of a half grain of rice.

( my nails are that size , small hands)

 And eyelids closed to be soon opened wide a small bump, in Four months

 You'll open your eyes.

(This really did happen to me and 4 is a good number)

 

And I'll hold you tightly, And tell you nothing but truth,

( This is happening now)

If your not inside me, I'll put my future in you

 ( He gave me a New Future)

You are my one, and only.

 You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

 Oh you are my one, and only.

 You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

 And you'll be alright.

 

And You can lie with me, with your tiny feet when your half asleep, I'll leave You be.

(I have size 5 ½ feet and they are TINY) (I rarely fully sleep so I half sleep and thank you god for letting me sleep)

 Right in front of me for a couple weeks.

(For two weeks from Jan 1 2013 – Jan 15^th 2013 I was in mental hospitals, like in this video but they had me in rooms with cameras to make sure I didn’t die and God kept me safe)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_af256mnTE

 So I can keep you safe.

 

Cause you are my one, and only.

 You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

 Oh you are my one, and only.

 You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.

 And you'll be alright.

 

Your just a small bump unborn just four months then torn from life.

 Maybe you were needed up there but we're still un-aware as why

(I use to fly around in space when I was younger and the rest of the world is about to become more aware now that I am back in to my mind again.)